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Prelude (The Start)
00:21
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I hear her whisper that she loves me
I feel her next to me
I hear her sing the songs I wrote her
But it's just a dream
She doesn't know me from Adam
She doesn't know that I'm saddened
She doesn't know that I pine away
So I've got to find a way
I read the lines inscribed in her eyes
While I hold her hand in mine
She spells my name out with her finger
But it's in my mind
She doesn't know me from Adam
She doesn't know that I'm saddened
She doesn't know that I pine away
So I've got to find a way
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Adam
02:00
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I hear her whisper that she loves me
I feel her next to me
I hear her sing the songs I wrote her
But it's just a dream
She doesn't know me from Adam
She doesn't know that I'm saddened
She doesn't know that I pine away
So I've got to find a way
I read the lines inscribed in her eyes
While I hold her hand in mine
She spells my name out with her finger
But it's in my mind
She doesn't know me from Adam
She doesn't know that I'm saddened
She doesn't know that I pine away
So I've got to find a way
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3. |
A Lie Grows In Between
03:15
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Everybody's pushing to see you by my side
Posing like a picture hanging from a wire
Captivating smiles masquerading lies
Strangling a heartache entangled in the mire
Skillful implications I'm running out of time
Fearing your reprisal I'm forced to make you mine
Ask me no more questions tell me no more lies
Surrender your volition and we'll make up your mind
And you load another round
While you claim you'll wait for me
And you say we'll work it out
While you make your plans to leave
And you talk out of both sides of your mouth
While a lie grows in between
Plotted intercessions deceptive by design
Mislead me to believing your smile and not your eyes
Long forgotten whispers fallen by the wayside
Hide your true intentions while suggestions light the fire
And you load another round
While you claim you'll wait for me
And you say we'll work it out
While you make your plans to leave
And you talk out of both sides of your mouth
While a lie grows in between
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Long Time
04:50
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I heard you're in love
You've risen above
The tide of surprise
That left us frightened and immobilized
My hat's off to you
You've done what I could never do
You've left us behind
You meant it when you said goodbye
I've started making friends
My heart is on the mend
But it will be a long, long time
Before I love again
I'm old enough to know alone is not the lowest blow
But even so I'm prone to break not bend
It will be a long time before I love again
I'm dying inside
I haven't slept a single night
When I close my eyes
I'm startled and start up in fright
(And) try as I might
I can't give up this fruitless fight
The schemes I devise
Are futile means no ends will justify
I've started making friends
My heart is on the mend
But it will be a long, long time
Before I love again
If time alone could make me whole I'd be a whole new man
I've been forever and then back again
It will be a long time before I love again
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5. |
The Start
04:58
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There's no unquestioning acceptance
Of the ruse you've used before
You're not promoting misconceptions
That were known to open doors
There are no hues of hope
Within the palette you display
Only shades of desperation
Variations based in pain
We saw it from the start
That we were headed for the end
Too proud to ask for pardon
Too hardened to pretend
There are shouts that can't be silenced
There are doubts we can't suspend
So in starting out
We're headed for the end
There is no wisdom in denying
When the writing's on the wall
There's nothing right that's worth the fighting
There is no height that's worth the fall
There is no shame in resignation
When the current leads you on
There's nothing left for preservation
There is no sense of right and wrong
We saw it from the start
That we were headed for the end
Too proud to ask for pardon
Too hardened to pretend
There are shouts that can't be silenced
There are doubts we can't suspend
So in starting out
We're headed for the end
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6. |
Act
04:20
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When you arise
Alone from your bed
Heart holding grudges
For things I never said
Will you assign
Intentions that you bred
Will you define me
By assumptions that you dreamt
You may raise the curtain
But I might not take the cue
You may write the roles out
But I just might refuse
I can't breathe behind the mask
I left unfastened at the door
And I can't stay
To play this act out anymore
When you retire
To face another night
Knowing sleep begs satiation
Of your desire for a fight
Will you compile
The reasons that you're right
Will you revile me
For offenses you contrived
You may raise the curtain
But I might not take the cue
You may write the roles out
But I just might refuse
I can't breathe behind the mask
I left unfastened at the door
And I can't stay
To play this act out anymore
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Promises
04:13
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Some promises are forgotten
As soon as they are said
Some promises are remembered
With a sense of regret
Some promises mean protection
Some promises mean dread
Some promises are suggestions
Some promises are threats
I would never use a promise
To save a love or a life
I would never choose a promise
To prove a wrong or a right
For all the times you've made a promise
I won't believe that it's true
I need to leave it with the promise
I'll never make another promise to you
Some promises are prisons
Where you remain confined
Some promises are forgiven
On the day that you die
Some promises raise questions
Some promises make sense
Some promises are possessions
Some promises are debts
I would never use a promise
To save a love or a life
I would never choose a promise
To prove a wrong or a right
For all the times you've made a promise
I won't believe that it's true
I need to leave it with the promise
I'll never make another promise to you
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I never realized that in the moonlight
Your eyes reflect a brilliance born a billion years ago
When buckets full of stars burst into being
Beside the love that we've just come to know
The writing's on the wall
The cryptic codes of a heart still beating
Inscriptions of a timeless hand
Did we design these shades of meaning
Or are they the colors of some eternal plan
Beaming mothers say they saw it coming
While others mourn the loss of sons too young to go to war
Decisions made before the world's beginning
Dictate each step (that we take / taken) on this course
The writing's on the wall
The cryptic codes of a heart still beating
Inscriptions of a timeless hand
Did we design these shades of meaning
Or are they the colors of some eternal plan
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Strangers
04:22
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I thought that you were everything I wanted and needed
You thought that I was everything I seemed
We had our chance at love
We took it way too far
Let's be strangers from now on
You listened when I told you all my stories childish worries
I opened up you read me like a book
Although it went well at the start
The story grew too long
Let's be strangers from now on
If we were strangers you could love me
Because you'd see me
As everything that you think I could be
If we were strangers you'd believe me
I'd believe you'd never leave me
Let's be strangers fall in love each time we meet
It seemed to me the changes that you made were for the better
But now it seems you're acting just the same
If I could only see you from afar
I'd never see you wrong
Let's be strangers from now on
As far as I could tell you never wanted just to follow
It was in your heart to stand apart with me
We both were working all too hard
Couldn't keep it up for long
Let's be strangers from now on
If we were strangers we would have no expectations
No frustration(s)
We couldn't feel we'd let each other down
If we were strangers you'd believe me
I'd believe you'd never leave me
Let's be strangers fall in love each time we meet
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Gravity
03:11
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There's a force of attraction
At work in us all
We're being drawn to each other
Like a cart pulled along
Our stubborn pride tells us
It's in our hands to hold
But gravity tells us
It's beyond our control
Gravity
There can be no denying
It's inevitable
Might as well give up trying
(And) brace ourselves for the fall
We both were insistent
We would not love again
Gravitation saw different
And gravity wins
(The) sun holds us in motion
The moon turns our tides
Both create these emotions
They're not ours to decide
We suppressed our desires
With chains of restraint
But gravity smiled
And we fell flat on our face
Gravity
There can be no denying
It's inevitable
Might as well give up trying
(And) brace ourselves for the fall
We both were insistent
We would not love again
Gravitation saw different
And gravity wins
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Together
03:56
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Don't listen because it makes me think you love me
Don't say my name it carries me away
This path of understanding that we've trodden
Together
Has led me to a road I shouldn't take
Don't smile I'll see something unintended
Don't speak because you don't mean what I hear
This web of understanding that we've woven
Together
Has tied me to a feeling I can't bear
I love the thought of living life together
You're the song I thought I'd never sing
Don't love me I will love too much
Don't need me I can't give enough
But don't leave me I will never stand again
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12. |
The Other Side
04:10
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He's leaving her tonight
He can't endure another day
He's tried and tried and tried
He doesn't see another way
They've come so far it seems a waste to throw it all away
Is there a way to heal a heart, to still save face and stay?
You can change your mind when you see the other side
If you empathize, apologize, let go of all the pain
If you just think twice, take a breath, close your eyes
You can write a brand new history when you see the other side
She's leaving him tonight
She can't go on another day
She's tired of feeling tired
She thinks it's for the best this way
But to come apart after being close for oh so long
Is there a way to mend a heart, a way to right the wrong?
You can change your mind when you see the other side
You can scale that wall, think new thoughts; wipe away your tears
If you choose to try, you can make a sacrifice
You can find your silver lining if you see the other side
If you can forgive, you can forget, then it'll lead you to (the other side)
If you can hold on to all the love that you shared then you'll make it to (the other side)
With understanding you can see beyond this and into (the other side)
If you put in the time and hold on and hold on and hold on
You can change your mind when you see the other side
If you empathize, apologize, let go of all the pain
If you just think twice, take a breath, close your eyes
You can write a brand new history when you see the other side
You can change your mind when you see the other side
(If you can forgive, you can forget, then it'll lead you to [the other side])
You can scale that wall, and make it to the other side
(If you can hold on to all the love that you shared then you'll make it to [the other side])
If you choose to try, you can see the other side
(With understanding you can see beyond this and into [the other side])
You can win the prize when you see the other side
(If you put in the time and hold on and hold on and hold on)
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13. |
Look Away
03:13
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You came too late into my life
Was it just fate or circumstances not quite right
But to see you is pain, to be near you the same
So I’ll just look away
My heart breaks a little when I see your face
My heart aches a little every single day
Maybe if it was another time and place
My heart wouldn’t break when I see your face
A lonely life is hard to bear
But harder still when I see you standing there
I see your smile, your eyes, the sweetness inside
And I must look away
My heart breaks a little when I see your face
My heart aches a little every single day
Maybe if it was another time and place
My heart wouldn’t break when I see your face
My heart wouldn't break when I look away
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It’s not quite like I remember
All the tenderness is gone
We’re not prepared to surrender
But we’re too tired to carry on
Although the heart is still beating
We’ve not the will to see it through
We put a hesitant hand to the face
That’s in the place of the love we once knew
There’s nothing we can do
And nothing left to prove
Since this is not the love
The love that we once knew
It’s sad but it’s true
We have a mountain to move
Since this is not the love
The love that we once knew
The feelings fade to a flicker
The flame is dimmer with each day
Slim pickings just a bit slimmer
With every bit that’s chipped away
Can’t push this into a corner
Though at the core it’s torn in two
We both agree it’s not over
But we can see it’s not the love we once knew
There’s nothing we can do
And nothing left to prove
Since this is not the love
The love that we once knew
It’s sad but it’s true
We have a mountain to move
Since this is not the love
The love that we once knew
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15. |
The End
01:58
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If you can call this life I'm still alive
Although the reason for my being here was taken from my side
I'd waited for so long my goal in sight
And just like that she turned from me I never learned the reason why
If I had known that we were over I would have told her
I would have said her name and mine a thousand times
I won't try to convince her
Of how much I've grown to miss her
But if I'd known that was the end I would have cried
If I had known I would have stopped to say goodbye
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Joshua Lapo Pocatello, Idaho
Software engineer by trade, songwriter on the side.
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